I have a confession to make and, well, I might as well go as public as this blog with it, right? I made a discovery at home today that gave me pause. This revelation made me stop, think and want to make some changes starting NOW.
- Today, I looked into a closet FULL of clothes and thought “I have nothing to wear.”
- Today, I went to the pantry to find something for lunch and although it was full, I thought “There’s nothing to eat here.”
- Today, I discovered that I am spoiled. And, yes, I’m pretty ashamed of that fact.
When I realized just how spoiled I’ve become, it was quite humbling. I mean, seriously, to look into a closet full of clothes in utter disgust at having “nothing” to wear? Spoiled. To be entirely too choosy about lunch when I have options? Spoiled. It’s just plain wrong. How many out there would love to have even a second set of clothes to wear? How many would like to have the “problem” of deciding which shoes to wear? The answer, unfortunately, is entirely too many. People go without daily and I have the gall to be disappointed when I can’t find anything in our stocked pantry that suits my fancy for lunch. Y’all, it hit me like a ton of bricks today that I have not been grateful enough. At all. I really haven’t. I mean, sure, when I say my prayers I am thankful for my many blessings, but I admittedly rarely take the time to go through the list. My “things” are plentiful, actually, but my blessings are infinite. I need to be more grateful. Instead of griping that I don’t want to wear THOSE jeans, I should put them on and be thankful I have the ones I have. Instead of whining (to myself) that we don’t have what I wanted for lunch, I can eat and be thankful to have a meal. Because, let’s be honest, nothing guarantees that I’ll have that tomorrow. If it all fell away,I would wish I had the things back that I took so easily for granted. That’s a hard reality, but there it is.
I decided to share this because it’s been on my heart. I really want this blog to be a place where I can express all kinds of different thoughts, feelings and even things like this that knock me over the head. I have a feeling that some out there can relate to what I have written about today. Trust me, I say that without a hint of judgment, but with an understanding that comes from my own realization. I’ll never be perfect, but I know and trust the One who is and I am thankful that He loves me in spite of me.
I am reminded, yet again, to just be thankful. I am called to be thankful in everything – good, bad, up down and all things in between. Sometimes, I need that reality check even if it’s hard to face.
Blessings,
Kelly
In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:18